Things have changed.

Seems like i really dont update this much. As ive read my previous blogs, that was still when the 1st semester starts.. But now, another semester has come but im not going to school anymore. I was working as a host somewhere in Greenhills but sad to say, there were some things that made me end my contract there. So im planning to apply again. I dont want to be stucked up here - surfing the net all day -. Uh! that's not nice.

For the past months, i can definitely say that people change though you dont want them to. Before, it was twice a night then suddenly it became twice a month until it was totally NONE at all. To decide to end up a relationship when you fall out of love is easier than being caught in the middle. Middle of what? Between your mind and heart, of course! This is what I’m going to deal now: loving your partner but for some reasons, you are confused, perhaps, pathetic?! This sucks.

I remember some lines from Dawsons Creek - "I think it is time I'll let you go, and that is so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life, but the daydreaming, the running in place .. it’s not healthy. So this is me, cutting the cord. This is me, doing what I should have done eight months ago … saying goodbye.”

I am sure that I love him but the thing is, HE's ALWAYS HURTING ME. At first, he's just unintentionally making me feel worthless but now HE JUST DONT CARE AT ALL.

1.) What's with dating someone else knowing that THERE's STILL US? 2.) Then out of the blue just wont receive any text from him at all. 3.)You would just know that the reason why he's not replying with your messages is because he got his new cellphone number without even informing me at all. 4.) Telling his friends that we're already broke up weeks ago which is a LIE. 5.) Changing his accounts from MARRIED to SINGLE && deleting me in his featured friends. 6.) Flirting with his Exs && to some other girls.
Probably, i should have been dead than be totally ignored at all - I SHOULDNT HAVE EXISTED.

It's slowly killing me - I die inside each time he replace me.

My lips were sealed for a long time and he have never heard any single word from me. Id rather be quiet and let him just realize what was he doing to himself or rather in our relationship. Im just hoping that he would realize that all of those things, all the lies && all the pain he's giving me wont do any good at all.
One thing that only goes on my mind - " ATLEAST IM NOT DOING ANYTHING AGAINST THE LIMITS AND OFCOURSE THE CLEAN CONSCIENCE IS MINE~