FAIL/PALE

Saturday, 10:20 in the morning and I should be doing my assignments... but guess what? I'm doing this upsetting blog right now - thinking it could lessen the depression. I just had these disappointments last night. I was not really expecting I will have this feeling again after all those uh, sweet-loving moments. :/ Maybe, I was just expecting that this would turned out different from before. But then yes, a big FAILURE. I can not really get out from its shadow - (i mean, that so called-DISAPPOINTMENT) I don't know. I don't want to fuel my mind with upsetting and stressful thoughts. Can I just, ignore it? And start my day as if nothing's bothering me. (As if) If only I could that be transparent about my feelings, then maybe, for sure... you will understand me. Indeed, I am a worrier - just what I usually describe myself is. I'm always worried/bothered by things that I should/shouldn't have done. :/ And plus the motto of my life - WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW WON'T BOTHER NOR WILL HURT YOU. Truly.

I was just so upset. Sorry. My mind's confused.