FAIL/PALE

Saturday, 10:20 in the morning and I should be doing my assignments... but guess what? I'm doing this upsetting blog right now - thinking it could lessen the depression. I just had these disappointments last night. I was not really expecting I will have this feeling again after all those uh, sweet-loving moments. :/ Maybe, I was just expecting that this would turned out different from before. But then yes, a big FAILURE. I can not really get out from its shadow - (i mean, that so called-DISAPPOINTMENT) I don't know. I don't want to fuel my mind with upsetting and stressful thoughts. Can I just, ignore it? And start my day as if nothing's bothering me. (As if) If only I could that be transparent about my feelings, then maybe, for sure... you will understand me. Indeed, I am a worrier - just what I usually describe myself is. I'm always worried/bothered by things that I should/shouldn't have done. :/ And plus the motto of my life - WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW WON'T BOTHER NOR WILL HURT YOU. Truly.

I was just so upset. Sorry. My mind's confused.

Dearest Diary, ♥

It's been ages since I posted a blog here. I'd even already forgotten that I have this blog site. LOL You know what Diary, I was so happy these past 5 months. Err, I can still recall all the things happened months before that but, but and but(...)It's worth the pain. Look what and who I am now. Though there's a part of myself regretting about what it caused me but I'd had already forgiven them for whatever they had done to me. Past is not the main point here. It's the present - my today. :) From this quote, "Some of life's best lessons are learned at the worst times" Yea, it's true. A lot true on what I'd experienced. I believe that no matter where life takes me, I can still live my life on how I wanted it to be. And somehow it has to be learned that it's possible to trust again. I realized that not everyone is going to lie to me nor will hurt me. So what's new? I'm happy and contented for what I am now today. :) I will always keep memories of them in my heart(either good or bad) for it both helped me to be this person I am today. And though life is hard, tough && unfair.. everyone can get over the hurt and the pain. Just never ever gonna lose hope~ ♥ Just like me. :)

Just pictures~ :)

I'm the author of the only dictionary that defines me~ ♥

I want to share some of my favorite lines from the book "The be-happy Attitude". I was so happy that it seemed like I was bound to have this book. Every line deeply touches my heart and absorbs by my mind. Every stories, ideas and advices are truly meaningful and useful! c: Enjoy reading!

Be-Happy Attitude #3
- I'm going to be remain cool, calm and corrected.
Be-Happy Attitude #5
- I'm going to treat others the way I want them to treat me.
Be-Happy Attitude #6
- I've got to let the faith flow through me.
Be-Happy Attitude #8
- I can choose to be happy--anyway!

Nobody is financially secure
- The more you have, the more you can lose.

Material gains will not bring happiness.
- People who search for happiness in terms of money, possessions or investments portfolios are always in for rude awakening.

There's always somebody ready to help anybody.
- You're not going to get the help you need by putting on a false front by pretending you don't have a problem or by hoping it will go away.

We shouldn't ask why bad things happen to good people but rather ask what happens to good people when bad things happen to them.
- When bad things happen to good people, they are blessed for they are comforted. And yet, they become better person. c:

Trouble never leaves us where it finds us; sorrow will change our tomorrow. God inspires us to become better people not bitter ones.

Don't fix the blame, fix the problem.

- Decide not to go on for the rest of your life surrendering to sorrow and tears. We should always count on God's word.
Heb. 13:5 "I will never fail you nor will I forsake you."

- Do not accept defeat. Somehow we should learn to accept the reality of the bad things that happen to us without accepting emotional defeat.

- Tough times never last, but tough people do!

- Bury you selfish grief. Around us is a world filled with living human beings who are hurting more than you are.

- Think of God first, think of others second and then put yourself third.

- Add up your joy; never count your sorrows. Look at what you have left in your life; never look at what you have lost. Relive happy memories.

- Turn our problems into opportunities.

- Dream great dreams and make them come true!

- Pick up the broken hopes and start over again.

- Count your garden by the flowers; never by the leaves that fall.

If you think you're a total failure, remember this:
- Your greatest successes will forever remain -- God's secret!

Character can be changed! You can become a new person! Life can be beautiful! There's a solution to every problem. There's a light behind every shadow! God exists! Life goes on beyond death! Heaven is for real~ <3

Happiness--The beautiful belief in life is that no matter how difficult it may be, it is not your final destination.